conflicted again

I miss our plans of starting a family
we fucked that up cause you couldn't handle me
But I couldn't handle you in turn
I wonder were we always destined to burn
were you the wood was I the fire
Every argument was our igniter
And all we needed was a tiny spark
That lit up each time we barked
Damn Baby for you I fiend
Talking to you feels just like a dream
Completely unreal But IM conflicted how I feel
Its been so long don't know if I should lower my shield
Whats to come of this
confusing bliss
Your missed and today we reunited
Not permanently, just to talk, why not try it

We try to talk just as friends
Before we know it, other feelings blend
They send little shocks to my cerebral
I can't tell if what's happening is good or evil
I feel free tho!! of all my worldly pain
as I sit amongst you a/gain
a flame you are to me, you are warmth when
im cold, you practically give off endorphins
I feel good but I know it won't last
because we share a past
alas Im just a controller without a user
Eternally lonesome without her in my future
No nurture from no other, My pulse is growimg scarce see
can't give away my love, for you hold my heart we
Should end this before we start the
Chain of events causing you to also take my heart beat

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your words mean a lot dove, i

your words mean a lot dove, i have a lot of trouble with the lost love and finding a new one. lonliness is hard to deal with it brings on a lot of depression, but your words do help to soothe the burns from the old flame

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Oh mike you pull my heart

Oh mike you pull my heart strings so low it hurts! Wow such powerful writing conveying the desolation one feels when something indescribably valuable is lost! HugSS


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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^.^

"I wonder were we always destined to burn
were you the wood was I the fire
Every argument was our igniter
And all we needed was a tiny spark
That lit up each time we barked.."

A book full of matches.
Constantly rubbing at each others faults.
The more we push against one another..
The more friction created..
The whole damn thing burns,
and we all catch fire.

I loved this line,
and I can relate.
Very creative.
^_^


"We are, Each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another." -Luciano De Crescenzo

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thank you for feeling my

thank you for feeling my pain
thank you for the comment
i see you have been licked by the flame
we always get burned, leaving scars on top it
never heels what i feel its daily
i feel sick, and lonely
i feel fucking crazy
thanks again for being homely
homie, keep your head up
new love is like burn cream
those scars will heal right up.

also your profile description kicks ass
i had to scroll up to make sure i wasnt reading my profile haha you a cool cat!!! dont stop the pencil