Your silence wounds my soul
cutting deeper than the sharpest knife,
slicing through my icy veins,
draining me of life.
By your sweet civility,
no casual observer would ever know
that in your silence, that dreadful silence...
you let your anger show.
Your friendly smiles and easy grins
are merely thinly shrouded lies,
Belied by the hard reflections
in your cold, unfeeling eyes.
You say you bear me no ill will
for choosing to love another.
You tell me I can depend on you always
just like a brother.
Like beautiful autumn leaves
your promises are falling,
dead before they ever touch ground
or before you hear me calling.
The pain I caused,
I swear I did not intend.
I would have done anything
to keep from hurting a friend.
The closeness we shared,
once sweet, kind, and caring,
protective and unique,
loving and sharing,
Now lays in ruins,
tattered rags from a distant time,
words of a poem
that has lost its rhythm and its rhyme.
A secret room collecting dust,
dark and filled with gloom,
a decaying rosebush holding only thorns,
and not one single bloom.
Our friendship stands unbearable now,
filled with regret and pain.
although I hate to see it end,
I know it’s all in vain.
My bleeding heart grieves.
Why did it end this way?
Awaken me from this nightmare!
Grant me a brand new day.
Sun, rise, I beg of you!
Erase this pain with a brand new start.
Heal the breech of a broken bond.
Clear the cobwebs from my heart.
I can no longer sit here
Watching as you pretend
That everything is still the same;
that you are still my best friend.
So let silence reign,
let it take it’s conquering prize,
The battle is lost and I, defeated,
can no longer look in your eyes.
The yawning fork in our lives
leads us now in opposing directions,
on to bigger and better things;
to new and purer affections.
I wish you well.
I’ll never forget the friendship that we had,
And when you find that perfect girl,
please know that I’ll be glad.
May angels keep you safe and warm
and give you inner peace,
And maybe someday... someday,
your silent hatred for me will cease.