There has been a change,
somewhere, in me,
A change that only I can see.
I laugh at all the usual things.
I answer cheerfully
when the phone rings.
I joke and giggle,
I dance around,
And you will rarely see me frown.
My work is something
that I can't ignore.
My spare time is spent
as it was before.
My daily routines
still remain unchanged,
My family would not say
anything is strange.
There is nothing different
that anyone can see,
But there has been a change,
somewhere, in me.
The sky is not blue,
just a light shade of gray.
My witty remarks
are just words that I say.
I act as I am supposed to,
I do what I should,
Although nothing around me
can make me feel good.
My life is a blur,
racing by in front of my eyes,
My emotions are numb,
nothing comes as a surprise.
The decisions I have made
have caused me much pain,
But for the pain that I have caused,
only I am to blame.
I miss you, I love you...
but you will never see.
Yet, somewhere, there has been a change
in me.