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Despite all my rage
"Lean on me, when you're not strong"
I'm that for everybody
...only to be left with no one to lean on
You should be stronger than me
I'm adapting, quickly
Can't be the damsel in distress
Just because I have a rack & I rock a dress
I have no space to be a mess
I’m the strongest bitch you’ll ever meet
I’m the strongest bitch...even when I’m weak
I'm forced to heal wounds like I'm Luke Cage
I cauterize them quickly despite all my rage
I smell my flesh searing
As I try to keep my eyes from tearing
My heart is mostly scar tissue
A little bit for each of my issues
I’m fragile like a flower
I’m fragile like a bomb
I’ve found my power
You’ve created a monster
I’m becoming cold, hard, distant
I tried to stop myself from this dissent
Reaching for a hand as I felt myself sink
I’m not sure what to think
I can’t pretend I didn’t need you
I know you’ll feel what I’m feeling too
I’ve found my power
You’re fucking screwed
These
"...even when I'm weak"
and "like a flower...like a bomb" I stopped at a moving sale and bought invisible man~ellison and two ice cube trays. Later I thought somewhere a chikd cries from hunger in this city and I wept for an hour. Homelessness and hunger were my visitors today. I read about Cal Fire and saw pic of burned homes, read of people returning to nothing. We eat and have our things around us glad the fire is not here. Food prices rise, but we eat. More than sad, somewhere a son cries for a dead father. We must not be despondent. we must not despair. We must be "fragile like a bomb"
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Stella L. Crews
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This is something I wrote as
This is something I wrote as a statement towards the things I have overcome and how strong I am now, it's not meant to be something of despair...whenever the mood strikes I write and just get out my negative feelings. I don't feel like I am a monster now. I know I am still a caring, motherly figure. I enjoy my role as that.
-Betty