It takes me 58 steps to walk into my future
I don't feel the resentment at the time
I don't hear the noises either.
Although today, there were about
a million birds, species unknown,
atop the red rooftop building
and they had a purpose.
At least I heard they did.
There were two sets of doors
that I could describe to you as fleeting.
Fleeting because of their weight
and the gravity they held
that pulls people inside.
It's not a frightening feeling
or a disturbing one
as you may think.
It's a sort of wind that contracts
and pulses as you move through it.
I try to seperate myself from the masses.
I lurk in the corners
and drench myself in tobacco
but return inside and try to mask
away the outside stenches.
That's the way it works.
Without forwardness or major tradegies
that can be seen.
It circulates within your mechanics,
your beautiful machine.
But eventually it exposes itself
and you know exactly what it is.
Without explanation
and determined fear
your past life becomes your future,
the sun becomes the moon.
:(
this poem makes me miss you! I wish you were posting new stuff still!
Much Love
Ashley