I am a human -
cursed,
cast from the garden
and tempest-tossed -
tossed by tempests born
of gods and men -
blinded by unrealities,
thrown roundabout by details
and reborn with each passing day -
while blinded I see,
utterly confused,
and no fire from within
consumes me -
dependent and independent,
free, yet caged without bars,
tormented by hypocrises
held fast in thoughtless devotion -
ready for the next stage
and stymied at the starting gate,
advancing and retreating
in a haze,
denying still realities
that pass through my eyes
every day -
and perhaps
I do not answer
my own cry for change
because this is how
I was meant
to be -
roiling under the surface,
collected on the outside
and permitting all
the movements in between.
A human am I,
this world is my world,
and all the pieces of me
that slip away and return
have their place with my eyes
and without them -
these many visions of life
hold forth their depths
and grant no easy sight.
I keep my life
and all it means -
its convolutions,
revolutions and evolutions -
but all I own of it
is what I can keep
in mind.
With such exclusion,
only chance's exertions
hold out hope for me.
I will see something
not of mine
that will be worth receiving..
let it come as it will.
To say that I am impressed would be an utter understatement. This looks just like something I’d write, only much more profound than I have yet mastered to make writing. There’s plenty here that one could analyze and say things about. However, seeing as what my toughest critics tell me (among which I am as well) your lack of specificity would be the only thing keeping this masterpiece out of school anthologies.
I lend you praise!