We were out and about in the prodigal way
You and I against the world, that's what we'd say
You and I, you and I, you and I...
That's the chorus you sang to me till it got stuck in my head
You and I, you and I, you and I, you said
And we were alive and alone in that ineffable way
When stars are good company and questions won't abate
You and I, you and I, you and I...
That's what they all revolved around, our starlight, dark night queries
You and I, you and I, you and I, all hope, all hearing
And then
One day you put the camera down, and I saw your lips curl in a frown and I became in a moment someone unspecial to you
I found peace just yesterday
When I finally saw you again
(Ten years later!)
Same soul, different face, different place, different skin
And I didn't scream and curse you
Or run up to you and embrace you
I just told you, no more
And went on my way
I thought healing meant forgiving
Or letting go
And I wish I could tell you something else,
But these two things remain true;
I still hate myself
And I still hate you
You have great skill for
You have great skill for depicting intense emotion in very convincing words and phrases. The first ten lines reminded me of the summer I spent with my First Beloved---a very pleasant set of memories. Your poem is very effective, and the last four lines deliver a real gut-wrench to the reader.
Starward