The Unhealing, The Lost

We were out and about in the prodigal way

You and I against the world, that's what we'd say

You and I, you and I, you and I...

That's the chorus you sang to me till it got stuck in my head

You and I, you and I, you and I, you said

 

And we were alive and alone in that ineffable way

When stars are good company and questions won't abate

You and I, you and I, you and I...

That's what they all revolved around, our starlight, dark night queries

You and I, you and I, you and I, all hope, all hearing

 

And then

 

One day you put the camera down, and I saw your lips curl in a frown and I became in a moment someone unspecial to you

 

I found peace just yesterday

When I finally saw you again

(Ten years later!)

Same soul, different face, different place, different skin

And I didn't scream and curse you

Or run up to you and embrace you

 

I just told you, no more

 

And went on my way

 

I thought healing meant forgiving

Or letting go

 

And I wish I could tell you something else,

But these two things remain true;

I still hate myself

And I still hate you

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You have great skill for

You have great skill for depicting intense emotion in very convincing words and phrases.  The first ten lines reminded me of the summer I spent with my First Beloved---a very pleasant set of memories.  Your poem is very effective, and the last four lines deliver a real gut-wrench to the reader.


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