I don't want to live, nor to die,
This feeling I have pains me inside,
Wanting to give up, but also to live,
Telling myself a little lie of love.
The sorrow in my life penetrating my soul,
Crying and crying not feeling any better,
I want to leave this world behind,
Even though I know I never can.
Further and further into darkness I fall,
Sorrow growing Stronger and even more penetrating,
Every time I fall a new level,
It hurts so badly and I cry and fall one more.
Pain inside flowing through my veins,
I end up with the knife again,
Within my grasp it lies, I tremble,
Knowing I can die so easily.
Flowing from my body, my blood,
Turning the water pink, then deeper,
Closing my eyes I sleep,
Until I wake up in the hospital.