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a dear friend asked me last night what were my fantasies.

reluctantly i told her, because i believe in honesty & transparency.

" i fantasize about becoming wealthy, saving people, winning races & being a super hero".

i fantasize because in reality i feel less then zero.

on the outside i'm happy, i smile, laugh, joke & talking to others tends to make them happy.

on the inside i'm self loathing & feel so inadequate, which makes me feel crappy.

but i'm not here for myself, i'm here for my family, friends, my children & you.

so trying to make people happy is what i aim to do.

when i'm talking, joking, helping or laughing with someone i'm not in my own shell.

& fantasizing about the things i do helps me live in my own hell.

it's important to fantasize, maybe they'll come true.

if our fantasies were to come true we'd be in heaven, a heaven for me & one for you!!