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Over the last few days I've been running ideas through my minds

mill just to test my own character.  I wanted to see if I could

face you one last time.



I know I owe you an apology at the very least, but; when I left

the east coast the most we had ever said to one another was,

"Do you have to smother me?"



So many times I told my friends that i didn't love you and that

I didn't care but I realize now that I wasn't fair to you or to

me.  I see now just how valuable the unconditional love you

gave me could have been in saving me from years of heart ache.



But now, wow!, we haven't seen each other in years and all of

my worst fears are about to culminate here and I've had to

suffer for years with the knowledge that I may be sending all

of my kids to college at the same time including the one I may

have with you...



The best thing though, I know, is yet to come because i believe

I know you and you were never one to hold a grudge so someone

had to knudge you into action.  I just hope that whoever it is

gets the satisfaction of knowing what I know...we actually

loved each other, we actually cared, and you are still my

beautiful butterfly.