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I sit and sigh when I try to remember why I made some of the

decisions I made in my life.  I admittedly have regrets but

my mind-set is that I have time as long as I am alive to strive

to make my world a better place to be...not just for me but

also for those I call affectionately "my seed."



Some people claim to have no regrets but I bet if they were

better educated on alternatives that they would've lived a

different life.  That's not to say that I didn't love my x-

wife because we are friends it's just that in the end we

both could've been happier with the things we've done with each

other's feelings.



I'm sure we both have been sent reeling on more than one

occasion by the abrasion of each other's words and I know

that I've heard some things meant for me that sounded alot

like profanity but cut much deeper.  So what is my excuse

for making her cry?  I don't know, so I sit and I sigh and

sometimes...I cry too.



Because I know that if it wasn't for her I would've never

made it to where I am today so I pray for her forgiveness

but if I could just take it all back...I would.



So, there'z the brunt of my pain all laid out plainly for

the world to see mostly because I know I can't be the only one

with this preference, I'm just my own base of reference.

Since I've repented and attempted a bid at redemption I can

only hope for an exemption when it's time to pay the cost

because without that "get out of jail free" card, I'm lost