i love with a love...
that no man should possess...
a love unconditional...
yet i go through so much stress...
Lord,
please forgive me for the tests that i've failed...
for my heart only sees heartache...
as an emotional hell...
but Lord,
i curse You not...
for my faith still lies in You...
i ask that you continue to give me the strength...
and Your Will i will do...
Lord,
why is it that...
i go through so much pain?
i just don't understand...
yet, refrain me from asking questions...
cause i doubt not Your plan...
i am only a man...
but whom You know inside and out...
aware of my heart's love...
and the love of a woman that i can't seem to go without...
without You i am nothing...
please Lord,
give me something...
a sign or a voice...
so that i may rejoice...
God, all i desire is one woman...
i could scream her name...
or paint You a picture...
but with a mere glimpse within my heart...
You already know who she is...
i messed up tonight Lord...
i am so ashamed...
so here i am...
bowing before Your name...
my face in tears...
i pray before You daily...
and even harder at night...
and i have recognized that this battle...
is not even mine to fight...
i've put my faith in you Lord...
and trusted in Your word...
yet i always seem to break down...
at the sight of one girl...
i can hear the enemy whispering...
i feel him more and more...
yet, i got my eye on the sparrow...
and the path seems to be getting narrow...
and Lord,
my heart is so sore...
Father,
You are my light...
even the times i can't recognize...
i need You in my life, Lord...
be my feet...
my tongue...
and my eyes...
allow me to see things how You would see them...
to walk the path of righteousness...
and to speak things how You would speak them...
Lord...
must i start over?
when i never once lost faith...
i simply made one mistake...
but a mistake i shouldn't have made in the first place...
so whatever punishment You deliver Lord...
i shall take it...
and a thousand fold...
for i know my heart's true dwelling...
and for You and her...
its doors shall never close...
Lord, i love you,
and please forgive me...
Your son,
Tha Prodigal One...
I must stop reading here and pray.
In so many ways I feel your hurt.
This is another beautiful prayer.
Thank You so very much for sahring
your life, thoughts, feelings and
most of all your prayers.
Marica