by Jeph Johnson
Mom wrote and told me she really hoped I didn't fall back into a depressed state:
"You have made such huge strides, I just don't want you to slide back down again...it makes all of us feel wonderful when you are happy, you know!!"
Mom, I only get depressed when I think.
That's why I had such a good time the other day getting drunk...
I stopped thinking
Of course it was only after I stopped THINKING about what getting drunk meant that I could enjoy being drunk
I am attempting to cease thinking about all she means to me in hopes that I can enjoy not being with her