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"Motivation to Wake"
by Jeph Johnson
each time I sleep
a drop of suicide
numbs my problems
and purpose falls flat
while my skills lie dormant
and untapped
-
I used to write
three songs a week
now my prose
debates my soul
for inspiration
-
I wish the sun would set
and I could go down with it
to the other side
where I used to really smile
not smirk while dreaming
-
brain blanketed by ugliness
-
a thirst for power
is encompassed in an erection
and my body screams louder
than if I'd died
suicide failed again
waking me
with her
in my mind
beating on my balls
and brain
fragrance filtered
through my sheets
continuing
until
I succeed
by lacking
the motivation to wake
