PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

by Jeph Johnson

I pray to the unwanted god 

Of somewhere in-between 

Rifling through the madness 

Of humility and self-esteem 

In stark contrast to answered prayer;

Relying on my dreams 

To tell me right from wrong 

I mix some dirt in with the clean 

Consensual or statutory? 

A quandary so complex 

Sifting through the pigeonhole 

Of concave or convex 

Disturbing yet so beautiful, 

A blessing and a hex 

Pain & pleasure, S&M, 

Comfort and distress 

Growing tired of sleeping, 

My body rests with work 

Playing different games 

I hope to influence and lurk 

While I pretend I'm someone else 

Besides a total jerk 

This technological camouflage 

Is just another perk 

I want to reinvent myself 

As someone else, you see 

Be born again another time, 

But they won't allow me three 

Huddled alone and damaged 

Waiting for another me 

To die again somehow but~

Victims of suicide can't flee