She says she wants to be closer
Yet I get scared and move away
She wants me to speak my mind
but I have nothing to say.
The best of words are said between the sheets
when the sweat has reached the engine
in the spot our bodies meet.
Shivering slowly,
a sexual calm
curing hunger, feeling wrong.
She says she wants me
not needs me
that would be too vulnerable
of words for her petite mouth
She touches me and I feel
weak
Finding reason to want
to speak
but then a sharp pinch
will cause me to flinch
send me back to reality
and cold shivers enter my
my energy
Causing hurtful gut responses
Sapphire dreams and
hopeful wishes
She grabs my hand
forbidden caresses
my skin
Loins eternally burning
as hot breath becomes my speech
All there is to feel
will enter my bloodstream
and fill me with tremors
Gasping again, I feel safe
Gripping the mattress out of pleasure and pain
Euphoric visions passing
over me
She says "stay still, now move slow"
and at that moment,
she has to go.