I See Her

I see her all the time. 

I see her in the couple that I watch argue about the nonsensical. 

I see her when the guy kisses the girl in the movie.

I see her when I feel alone.

I see her when I pick something to watch and I don't have to take anyone else's preference into consideration.  

I see her when a car that looks like hers drives by. 

I see her I think about what I should do with my life now.

I see her when I make a choice that puts me in the direction I need to be in.

I see her when I think about seeing someone else. 

I see her when the word beautiful is said.

I see her when I see a flower that catches my eye.

I see her when I hear a love song that could have been played on our wedding day.

I see her when I look at myself in the mirror. 

 

How can I see anything else if all I see is her?

How can I move on with life if all i see is her?

How can I focus on what's important if all I see is her?

How can I see the man that I am to become if all I see is her?

 

I must not see her again. 

I must blind my passion, my addiction,  my obsessivenes, my weakness, my salvation. 

I must not allow myself to see her....

For I can not see anything else aside from her if I see her. 

A blind fool is what I must be to become a wise man. 

So with out sight and upon faith I walk.