Voices

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mental illness

its bad enough

that i deal with emotional

ups and downs

everyday, every week

Really high manias

then really depressive lows

then add another problem

ontop of that

 

imagine you get so angry

when manic, and then

out of nowhere

you hear a voice

but no face to match it

telling you, in a deep

almost satanic like voice

"kill them, hurt them

they desserve it"

you know you're not

the hurtful type

But who do you believe

a faceless voice in your head

oe your conscience

 

During your very depressive lows

imagine hearing not one,

not two, but five "popular" girls

telling you

"you are worthless, you're nothing

just die already you failure"

again, they're faceless voices

they bully you

they wont stop

again, who should you believe

the faceless voices of bully girls

or your inner conscience

 

those voices may seem to

never end

but trust me, they will

once you brig yourself to

do something, to be happy

and you choose your inner conscience

over them

 

the voices may come and go

but your inner conscience

is there forever

Author's Notes/Comments: 

i suffere from Bipolar Disorder with Psychotic features. this piece is about my experience with auditory hallucinations (hallucinations that you hear) along with being Bipolar. want to show people it is a rea thing and it is possible for the voices to stop or at least be at bay.

Jesster's picture

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I just change the channel. (Though the dark ones i hear dont tell me to do bad things, they just speak to try to induce fear) There Are nicer voices to listen to. But, I kinda just ignore them all and try listening to my own softer inner voice. Anyway, empathizing... Keep up the good work!


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TwiztidXSoberBunniee's picture

thank you

this is one of the best things i have heard from someone on here. i try to bring to light different mental illnesses from my experiences and my friends experiences from what they told me. i will definitely keep up the work. i like posting on this site


Joanna S.

allets's picture

You Both Are Courageous People

Glad u r posting - allets -

 


 

 

Jesster's picture

Thanks

Thanks yall. Appreciate the encouragement. I should say more I suppose. I just don't like phone typing very much. 


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