nthe phone rings, they cry and sob
the most painful thing was said
"your friend just died, they overdosed
on heroin"
Lke a kife straight through the heart
the pain increases, faster, in super speed
until you drop to the floor
you knew they were playing Russian Roulette
with their life
you repeat to yourself
"why now, so young
they had a whole life ahead
of them"
it feels like a part of you
just slipped away
vanished
without a trace
"if only i was there"
"if only i called and talked to them
yesterday"
are the only things you can say
in your head
to make some, just some of the pain
to go away
all you can do is lay in your bed
and hold back the tears
you don't want to talk
to anyone and everyone
The depression sinks in
Like the Titanic in the Atlantic
soon you can't feel a damn thing
not a single emotion, not a single feeling
by the time the funeral comes
you are still numb
maybe more numb than normal
you know this day is the day
you say your final goodbye
you go to the casket
and place their favorite drawing
you made
and the tsunami of tears
flows right back
then comes the anxiety
wishing this never happened
and you start to lose your
composure
You were always the strong one
Then a realization comes to mind
"i dont want to be where they are"
"im going to rise up and above.
no more bullshit, no more drugs"
you come back, standing tall and calm
you whisper into the casket
"it is never a goodbye, it's a
see you later"
then, on that very day
sobriety takes over
you're doing it for you, and only you
The Flip Side
We hide away the results of neglect - H is on the rise as a drug of choice because it is cheaply obtained. We can tract a human from a satellite and hit them with a drone strike but can't find suppliers of substances that are killing us hourly. I marvel! Once addicted, recovery is possible but excruciating the journals say. With the new budget, money for recovering folks will probably be cut - it makes not money in the new business model for national U.S. government. Sad.