I am a soldier in my own means
In these battles all alone I dare not lean
I do not lean to another side
For then I would constantly have to ask why
But still there will be a day
When the blood stops rushing away
After all I waged a war upon myself
I have to put the journal of the past on the shelf
But still I have to fight these battles alone
I am waiting for my war to end so I can go home
And live the life I wanted to live
Soon my soul shall learn to give
All I have is feelings of being weak and powerless
This war may continue on
But my wish is for it not to spawn
Into someone else’s life
For then a sad tune my emerge from the fife
How hard it can be to be pure
How to maintain it sometimes I’m not so sure
But I have to look into the mirror
To look upon myself clearer
Soon this war against myself will end
And soon me, myself, and I will be friends