Infliction

I was told before

This releases the pain

Unlocks what's happening inside

Until there's nothing left

But blood and scars

Another stain you'll try to hide



All of this is crazy

Like I've said in the past

The body God gave you,

Wasn't meant to be ruined like that

By creating a mosaic

The devil wants to see

He put the pain inside you

So go ahead and "set yourself free"

...Yeah right



And now I wonder to myself

Two things in curiosity

One will you ever do it again

And two is it happening to me



Will you ever do it again

You've done it before

Is there anything that bad

That's begging for more

And if there might be

Please think it through first

Because if you do it again

You won't be the only one you'll hurt



Is it happening to me

An infliction of pain

By having a relationship with you

Is this all just a game

I want to say no

I don't want to say that it is

But every time you hurt me

It's like having blades to my wrists





Yet, there is no pain inside me right now

And no, it's not bled to the floor

I've taken what's bothering me to you

And have worked it out before

I'd do something stupid

Something I'd regret

Something undeserving of you

And this proclaimed "S" on my chest



So are you my suicide

Or are you my life

Promise me you won't

Do it again

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Everything is wonderful right now in my life, and I couldn't ask for anything more...maybe a longer kiss under the mistletoe.  But anyway, I just wrote this because it was a thought from my past.

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