The Walking Dead

Vacant stares and greying hairs

Epitomize my darkest fears

You were here but now you're dead

With grim reminders in your stead

What can I say to comfort the living

I'm haunted by my own misgivings

The weary steps of the pallbearers

The chill of death grows ever nearer

Mine in the maddening stillness

My guilt and your fatal illness

The way you were willing to die

The way you appear to peacefully lie

How you never feared death

Your final sigh and parting breath

They closed your eyes and folded your arms

Yet I can barely imagine the alarm

As you screamed from the pain

Tearing flesh and boiling rain

Endless agony with no relief

Realizing life was far too brief

All of its' pleasures are gone

You wish you would've held on

Yet to me you seem at peace

As if your soul had found release

Your friends all speak kindly

As they live out their lives blindly

And they will wind down as well

Only to be dispelled

How can I comfort the grieving

To smile yet not be deceiving

To say you've gone to a better place

When I know in my heart that's not the case

Sometimes I just don't want to speak

The truth too sad and the outlook bleak

Scripture tells me that I have hope

And need no longer wander and grope

Yet life is so raw to me

The invisible realities I'm made to see

I see everything wasting away

Sweetness and beauty in rapid decay

Losing my mother and father someday

How can I make a deceitful display

How can I possibly laugh or smile

Won't it reinforce the denial

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this poem in 2000. I was going to church and was inspired to write a poem about someone who dies and although they thought they were going to heaven they went to hell instead. It's very unsettling, upsetting and uncomfortable for me to read now. Nevertheless I think it's one of my best.

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hopelessly-candid's picture

You are such an incredible

You are such an incredible writer! I am always so excited to read your work. It is so honest and SO perceptive, but I am sure you already knew that. x)

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Wow!! Thank you very very

Wow!! Thank you very very much. In a way almost all of my poems are autobiographical in one way or another. It's like "Where's Waldo?" Or rather," where has Peter hidden himself in this poem?" Thank you again. :)

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    This poem is a good read

 

 

This poem is a good read and is well written I also like your rhyming. We have one life and one earth, all can be confusing at times this is probably hell.


 

 

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Thank you very much,

Thank you very much, A.Griffiths! :D

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It's me. Trying desperately

It's me. Trying desperately not to stutter.

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My Dearest Friend Peter

My Dearest Friend Peter,

                                       Heaven and Hell are mere hallucinations of the sleeping mind. These  places are designed by wise people.Mr Peter, please do awaken and just listen to your inner voice(conscience) and just do whatever it says. Nothing can go wrong I can guarantee.But alas !! the battle of the charms of worldliness over the conscience. Sometimes the inner voice loses.Then we land in Hell.Do good you'll always be in Real Heaven. Sorry for the foolish and unwanted indoctrination.YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON.Go on with your present work and also some  writing and everything else will fall into place.

                                                                               ~your~wellwisher~very~far~away~but~under~the~same~sun~moon~and~stars


©bishu 

 

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Thanks, Bishu. :)

Thanks, Bishu. :)