What to Pack for Your Departure

 

For Andrea

 

I would arrive at the office

stuffed into my lackey persona,

contorted into the shape

of that cold 

corporate box with its 

tyrannical clocks

and manufactured

greetings . . . 

 

almost audible chains 

dragging what was left of 

my will,

 

knowing somewhere a monarch

was tucking into a 

newly-hatched wildflower,

 

drinking beauty,

drinking life,

drinking surrender . . .

 

we should all love and

be loved like that,

we should all be created

again and again 

like that,

 

and you made it happen,

 

even under the  

all-seeing

mock-sunlight above 

cubicles and a computer

waiting to lobotomize me,

 

even there,

something sweetly human 

would fall

through the roof and

my reassembled real self

would believe again: 

 

every act of kindness is worship,

all ground touched by peace

is holy—

 

you were the prayer I couldn't

quite think of when even

the idea of God was a 

universe away,

 

and even with glass wings 

you lifted me,

even in pieces you gathered 

my own scattered heart.

 

Now the plaster air molds 

this one stubborn moment into 

stillness all around.

Persistent, dour ash trees 

sprinkle sun like the 

high priests of summer,

 

but they cannot shade 

the scorch 

of the absence of you.

 

Certainly you fly now 

from star cities and 

crackling myths

to quantum lands within

 

while our minds are still

somehow in lockstep, 

in wonder, 

wordless and brighter than

any pearled conversation,

and all I can say is:

 

You packed the 

essentials. 

 

What you took with you

is also what 

you left behind—

something very close

to Heaven

and never truly gone.

 

Patricia Joan Jones

 

 

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Wordman's picture

What a wonderful person she

What a wonderful person she must have been, to be remembered with such fond words, and with your sharing, introduced to us and be allowed in her rememberance. As always, a beautiful write, thank you for sharing. 

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Thank you for the honor of

Thank you for the honor of your presence and your radiant addition to Andrea's remembrance. It means so much, superb Poet. Many times: thank you!

 

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Wow just wow and all the wows

Wow just wow and all the wows necessary to describe this fantastic sojourn through breaking through to reality and nature and the power within which leads to the power without.... incredible descriptions prefect nuance. Beautiful and balanced, perfectly weighted, as deep as it is high and so much more! Wow Andrea! Just wow! 

Incredible work patricia. Brilliance and beyond! Hugss 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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Thank you so much for

Thank you so much for unearthing the heart of my expression and for leaving such marvelous, poetic encouragement. You are a treasure. Endless thanks!

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Breathless but not

Breathless but not thoughtless nor void of emotion - but full to overflowing. That is how parting should be. In the build up it felt like a parting that could most definitely end up sorrowful but the latter part and that shining last stanza has made the Reader both validated and empowered to walk in such light everyday. Thanks for sharing.


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Thank you for reading with

Thank you for reading with such a luminous and precise eye. You got it! I'm always thrilled to receive the impressions of such a gifted and insightful wordcrafter.

 
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To comment on this Poem, I

To comment on this Poem, I have to begin with an astronomical metaphor, because I think the Poem defies an ordinary initial description.  This poem is a trinary star system, around which phrases like planets the three stars.  The stars are the stanzas beginning with "drinking beauty . . ." then, "we should all love . . ." and "every act of kindness . . ."  These are not only the most important stanza in the poem, they are also---I would venture to assert---three of the most important stanzas in the Poet's entire collection.  And the final stanza, one of the most poignant she has ever written, describes what we can give to each other---as Poets to our readers, as lovers and friends to our loved ones, as living persons to our neighbors and contemporaries, and as, ultimately, persons no longer resident on this planet to our descendents and those who remembner and cherish our legacies.  Spirituality is always paradoxical:  as a Christian, I happen to believe that a Galilean rabbi, slian in the most horrible and agonizing way then known to humanity, has not only shattered my death by His death, but guaranteed my eternal Life by being resurrected---when stated this way, it seems like an extreme paradox, but when meditated upon it is a great spiritual comfort.  Patricia's stanza also explicates a paradox:  what we take with us as most precious to us is also what we leave behind in the legacy that remains of us after our departure.  It is the paradox like Issa (the Haiku Poet . . . I think I am remembering correctly here) found in a droplet of rainwater that contained a whole universe within it.  The mundane fact of the world---those that most people would agree make complete sense to help us remained "grounded"---can be found on a train ticket, a dinner menu, or a tax return.  Only in Poetry can the true spiritual paradoxes be traced, described, and discussed---but never exhausted in meaning---and Patricia has proven herself, repeatedly, one of the greatest exponents of this kind of metaphysical Poetry.

    Here is another astronomical metaphor that comes to my mind and is a paradox.  Some of the stars that we might believe we actually see in the sky are no longer existing.  It is only the light trails, taking millennia of light years to reach us, that now remain; yet, by those light trails, great ships have navigated vast seas, and lovers have met in intimate convergence.  These stars we believe we see, that may no longer actually be at the other end of the light trails they have launched, are like the paradox her final stanza describes---leaving something behind that is very close to Heaven and never truly gone.  A Poet looks at the sky, at a particular star, a point of light, which is really now just the light trail (the star having collapsed and gone out).  The Poet describes that light trail in a poem; and, no matter if the light trail reaches the end of its existence, it is now preserved in a poem (or in photographs made by Hubble & Webb in outer space).  The poem is read by readers and makes itself part of their consciousness, whether they are always fully aware of its presence or not.  This is the process of taking with and leaving behind that Patricia's poem concludes with---a conclusion that, paradoxical in itself, is both conclusive and open-ended.  

      I am going to conclude my comment by suggesting (after some three years of reading Patricia's poems) the three levels on which her Poetry functions; and the levels are equal in significance, one is not superior or inferior to the other two.  First, the poems are metaphysical---they enclose the body, the earthly, the tangible within a spiritual significance.  Secondly, they are a record, a legacy, of and from one of the most spiritually shrewd souls I have ever had the privilege to read,  And third, they are what the scholars call Meta Poetry---poetry about poetry.  Wallace Stevens' poetry majored on this; Patricia's Poetry operates on the same level, in the same domain, that Stevens made his own; and that now, in front of us all on PostPoems, she makes her own.

       Back in the summer of 1975, I---a callow, naive, and rather nerdy teenager---was able to find, during my first real visit to our county's main library (I had, previously, been geographically bound to our local branch) an edition of Mary Shelley's journal, which had been edited and published in the early forties.  Those of you, reading this, who know me know how deeply and personally significant Mary Shelley is to me.  In the final entry of the journal she maintained until four years prior to the massive stroke that brought her earthly life to its close, she wrote these words, a quotation from a letter that the political philosopher Edmund Burke wrote to his son; and words that Mary Shelley believed was the principle to which her life had aspired---Preserve, always, the habit of giving.   Patricia's Poetry embodies and fulfills those final words in Mary's journal; I believe---and I mean this sincerely---that she and Mary Shelley are kindred spirits.  When someone, someday, creates the printed volume of Patricia's poems (and that will happen in the future, mark my words), on the title page, this epigraph---these final words that Mary Shelley wrote---should appear under the Patricia's name, as a front page indicator of the supreme significance, and process, that her poems illustrate.


J-Called

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I'm overjoyed by your

I'm overjoyed by your perceptive and reassuring analysis.

 

It meant so much that you grasped, not only the intent of this poem, but my vision for this compilation as a whole. If it worked for you, I know it works! That's how valuable your opinion is. Truly, I'm overwhelmed with gratitude for your steadfast support and for being the beacon that guides so many to shore.

 

Everlasting blessings.