Crucible of Light

 

There's a gift in here

somewhere—

in this diamond-cutting pain that

creates the triumph and

the countless deaths 

in me. 

 

The lake has diluted 

my haven of sky:

my jasmine-white 

and star-forged armor of 

long ago; 

crackling testimonies

of power that outdanced kings

and empires and the 

arrogance of time; 

wind-shattered light scattered

here and there . . .

 

How perfect to be so utterly

dissolved, so dismantled,

so unbound,

 

and here, in this

wilderness of 

mind,

here is where I will launch

without leaving 

the ground.

 

Let the Earth rise with me.

 

I'll also take this theater of myths

circling the night,

but this time, 

Sacred Music of the Spheres,

send all of me through the portal

or everything is 

left behind. 

 

And tell me, 

just what is the rite of passage

into joy? 

 

Is it giving like the Earth, 

in love with itself, gives,

then takes everything,

then gives back more? 

 

The stars are desolate 

next to that devotion,

that deliverance. 

 

Now don't sever 

this perfect thread of knowing

with more questions.

 

In the fullness

of that dying

I live again.

 

Patricia Joan Jones

 

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arqios's picture

This reminds me of a similar

This reminds me of a similar if horticultural image of pruning, were the hurting and severing do not kill but in the healing bring growth and more life, more living. That the calculations however minute are accurate and purposeful, as in the measuring and cutting of diamond facets, imagine the cost of a cutting mistake to the value and the finished product. And much more than the art and the science and math of it all is the heart and the spirit from which flow the wellsprings of life.


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patriciajj's picture

Thank you, great poet, for

Thank you, great poet, for such piercing and wise insights into the heart of my message. I value every one of your comments. Peace and Light. 

Spinoza's picture

what is the rite of passage

You are one of those fine pillars, that make post poems a continued pleasure for me. To cut a rough diamond, is to study it thoroughly beforehand.

 

crackling testimonies

of power that outdanced kings

and empires and the

arrogance of time

 

As for the question - “ just what is the rite of passage

into joy?”

 

My grandmother gave me the answer to this, long ago…

 

To appreciate – and love, for happiness and joy – are always the by-product of gratitude.

 

~/~

 

 

patriciajj's picture

Your grandmother gave you the

Your grandmother gave you the key to everything important. Obviously you inherited her enlightenment. Thank you for your amazing feedback. It made my day! 

saiom's picture

thank you

 

Thank you Patricia for

this beautiful poem..

each time the universe

has broken your great heart

it became larger



 

 

patriciajj's picture

Thank you for using your rare

Thank you for using your rare and innate gift of words to interpret my poem. Such an honor, dear poet! 

S74rw4rd's picture

Although, like Stevens,

Although, like Stevens, Patricia often places a poem's center of gravity away from the beginning, in this poem the first line leads with it.  (As I proceed, I should like to excuse the wording of my comment---it may be briefer than usual---due to the my reaction, which they tell me is normal, to the first dose of my Covid vaccine.  I feel like I have been run over by a freight train.)

  The poem shows us that we dwell between and among phenomena that seem contrary, like dual poles in opposition to each other:  she gives us a diluted lake but a sky that is a haven.  Remember, though, that the poem summons us to find th gift---between the triumphs and the countless deaths, and the diamond cutting pain.  (In this comment, I borrow several of her phrases.)  What the poem shows the astute reader, as the reader moves among the many symbols that she deploys as representatives of her vision, is that the existence given us is, when we really examine it, the gift.  In one of the most striking comparisons of the poem, and of her entire collection, she states that the stars themselves seem desolate when compared to the enormous value, beauty, and joy of the gift that our very existence bestows on us.  

  When I was a grade-school youngster, one of my chief annual joys was Easter at my grandparents rural residence.  That was one of the most bucolic places I have ever visited; and no arboretum or formal garden that I have ever seen can compare to it.  My grandfather delighted in hiding Easter Eggs that always led to an elaborate Basket, and all of it was hidden with a shrewd skill that required that I actually look and examine the immediate surroundings.  Patricia's poem reminds me of that experience as it shows me, and every other reader, how to search for, and appreciate, the hidden Easter eggs in our common existence.  I can give a poem no greater compliment than a comparison to my grandparents' residence:  this poem reminds me of what, I think, my grandfather was attempting to teach me:  that some of the eggs are well concealed, and some are obviously placed.  It is a joy to collect and collate them---and this is, in my opinion, the most important function of the greatest Poetry.  So of course we can expect Patricia's poems to trace the contours and the contents of this experience.


Starward

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I can't thank you enough for

I can't thank you enough for digging so deep and unearthing the precise message I was hoping to present, and for holding it up in the light of your expansive and luminous perception. I'm deeply moved that you revisited your favorite memories in one of your favorite places as a result of my contemplation. Your feedback and support is valued more than you know. Prayers and gratitude. 

S74rw4rd's picture

Thanks for the reply.  When

Thanks for the reply.  When the very shrewd critic, Helen Vendler, published her essay on a reading strategy for Stevens' poetry, she taught me that reading a Poet (like Stevens, and like Patriciajj) who commands such verbal grandeur, while building a body of work that has many intricate internal connections, a reading strategy is absolutely required.  Believe it or not, I did not enjoy Stevens' poetry near as much prior to 1982 as I did, and do, after.  The vastness of your Poetry makes a strategy very desirable.  And the metaphor of my Grandparents' place came to my mind for that strategy.  What I learned, on my visits there, was that the "landmarks"---the two cottages, my grandfather's workshop building, the plank bridge and the creek, the wildflower meadow (representing nature) and the pile of discarded metal at its southeast corner (representing human arts)---were not separate items, but all components of one overall effect.  A poem by you, or by Stevens, cannot be considered in isolation; there must be an awareness of the total collection even if that awareness is not explicitly stated.  (And I am writing this not only for readers at postpoems, but for those scholars and grad students who will look at your work in decades hence.)  Because I am not as alert as I should be, it took me a bit of time to get to this point, but I have gotten there.  You, and Stevens, remind me of the Poets who named the constellations; who brought forth those patterns from the vast array in the sky that, to a rank amateur or to someone unable to appreciate it, seems like just a bunch of small twinkle-lights.  You, like Stevens, and Dante, and Vergil, are a constellator---no, let me amend that, you are a Constellator.


Starward

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One could apply your

One could apply your dazzling, astrological analogy to your collections as well. Don't underestimate your epics in the sky. I only wish I had the time and energy to read and analyze more of them.

 

How do I begin to thank you for your transformative support? May God do it for me someday. Take care. 

S74rw4rd's picture

Thank you for writing those

Thank you for writing those words; very encouraging at this difficult time.  


Starward