Finding Religion in Sperryville (In Memory of the Victims of Racial Injustice)

 

I wanted an early hereafter

so I drove to Sperryville,

though I knew God could be found

in the voices of rain

or the eyes of a dog,

 

I just wanted a day in someone's

toy village, and of course,

I found all the porches—

posing like Lady Liberty—

anyone could ever hope for

and those little fences and rivers

crazed with sanctity, brighter, even

than the tall servings of clouds—

mounds and mounds of

Victorian sweetness, bulging down

over steeples and cows and flags

and sad, rusted things . . .

 

Oh, and the mountains making a

sound like an anthem . . . 

 

and that's when I heard it: reality

in the far distance of my spirit—

so far, yet grinding away at 

the beauty bearing down, 

 

because somewhere, 

in a world that's burning,

someone is weeping over another 

life stolen, 

for no other reason than that life

was labeled less precious

than some others,

 

so now, how could I be a scholar of

the Universe or sing like Raphael

about the fruited plains,

when the graves are screaming

and hope is seething in 

tear gas

and some children will never hear

their father say "Well done"?

 

How was I supposed to join the

green revival of the pastures— 

and truly they can roll out scripture—

when all I know is Heaven's not here

till we pull it down

and see our splendor in each other?

 

Seeing all I came to see, nothing more,

I drove back towards my one last life,

with Sperryville,

clean-cut old preacher,

faded and small

behind me.

 

Patricia Joan Jones

 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

A follow up to "Pilgrimage to Sperryville". Seventeen years and too many outrages later, I believe, this time, I came away with something more important. 

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saiom's picture

  Your exquisite sensitivity

 


Your exquisite sensitivity and compassion


'I knew God could be found

in the voices of rain

or the eyes of a dog,'  one perfect line among many

 

 

 



 

 

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Your comment is a great honor

Your comment is a great honor and validation of my vision. My deepest gratitude. 

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you`re welcome pat

you`re welcome pat


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not much sanity left in this

not much sanity left in this world but the village you described might do the trick,even a fraction of sanity and peace would be worth the trip


ron parrish

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Thank you for that very

Thank you for that very positive perspective. 

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For This Offering

Thank You ~S~
 


 

 

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Thank you for reading and

Thank you for reading and appreciating. After the recent violations of human rights that could only happen in a quasi-democratic society, I had to speak out. My deepest gratitude for your support. 

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In contemplating this poem, I

In contemplating this poem, I am at a loss for words, so I must again borrow Ezra Pound's words, from a letter he wrote---I think it was to T. S. Eliot's American attorney---about the publication of Eliot's poem, The Waste Land,  As I cannot remember the exact phrase, and I do not have the source material in front of me, I can only paraphrase from imperfect memory; but, of Eliot's poem, Pound said, "About enough to make the rest of us close up shop" (the rest of us, he meant, being other contemporary poets),  And this is what I have felt about several of your poems, Gates of  Orion and Council of Stars especially, and now the Sperryvilles, that have such a supreme and summary beauty to them, that I almost wonder how another poet can continue after that.  For me, this is a new emotion that I have never felt when reading postpoems, not until this spring, when I began to read, and then to comment, on your poetry.  Your poems are, in the most poetic way, shining stars that cluster into an almost overwhelming constellation.  When I first saw Saturn through an observatory telescope, I almost wanted to weep for its awesome beauty, and its seeming nearness (even though I knew how far away from me it was).  And I never expected to experience that emotion while reading poetry---not Eliot's, not Stevens', not Vergil's.  But, here in this late segment of my life, I have felt that same emotion again, reading your poems, reading the Sperryvilles, and I feel, once again, that sense of cosmic awe, which I had never expected again.  I have often wondered before why I read so much poetry, and so much about poetry, during my undergraduate years---as that was not my Major, and often caused a kind of critical amusement among those who were directing my Major.  Now I realized I was being prepared for a twofold purpose---to write my own minor poems, and to appreciate and comment upon your very Major Poems.  And that has brought me a tremendous peace of mind.  I have wanted two things for a very long time:  to be a minor internet poet, and to be acquainted with a Major Internet Poet.  I have been blessed to see both of those come to fruition.


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I believe your talent is far

I believe your talent is far from "minor" as I've relished some of your intricate phrasing and devastating images with that same sense of astonishment you describe. Your remarkable commentary has catapulted me to a new plane of motivation and gratitude, so I now have to scrounge for words that would adequately describe my gratitude, but there are none. I can only sincerely and humbly thank you. 

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Thank you for your replies to

Thank you for your replies to my comments, and your kind compliment.  The Sperryville poems have been on my mind all day, even when I have been reading other things and doing a little writing.  This is exactly the way the Four Quartets began to affect me in May, 1977, and I have never really finished reading them.  I am going to read your Sperryville poems the same way I read the Quartets, and I am convinced the poetic effect will be exactly the same.  I will paraphrase something Eliot is reputed to have said to a friend who had just completed a first reading of Dante:  "You have not finished, you have just begun to read."  I think your poems have to be read in layers; they have to be read together sometimes, and then apart sometimes; they have to be read from an terran perspective, and then from a cosmic perspective.  Then all these strategies have to be bundled together for the first of many grand readings.  Your work, in sum, is exactly like what the poet Dara Wier said to me on that beautiful autumn day in 1978 when she introduced me to Wallace Stevens:  "He makes you work, but he pays you back for the effort."  Your poems make me work, and work a little harder than I have ever worked, in reading, at postpoems; but the payback is so magnificently much more than what I have brought to the poems.  


J-Called

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The fact that you, a longtime

The fact that you, a longtime student of language arts and now undoubtedly an expert, would read it again with undivided attention is the greatest compliment I could receive. I'm overwhelmed and humbly grateful. 

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Just as the stars are new

Just as the stars are new night after night, no matter now often one looks at them, your poems are new after each readingl and, always, after you have added another poem to your collection.  Eliot said---and this has always seemed true to me---that a poet's collection is changed with each new poem; just as the Western Canon itself is changed with each poet's contribution.  Your poems give very good evidence in support of Eliot's belief.  To rephrase a passage from Shakespeare, Time will not wither, nor custom stale, your extensive and expanding poetry.


J-Called

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Wow, that's as beautiful as

Wow, that's as beautiful as it is uplifting. My sincerest appreciation. 

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I read this again this

I read this again this morning, and I want to remark about phrases---the scholar of the Universe, and sad rusted things.  The first phrase functions as a kind of link to your other poems in which you prove yourself, definitely, as a scholar of the Universe.  This has the effect of bringing the authority and credibility of all those other poems on to Sperryville.  It reminds me of one of the poems of Wallace Stevens in which he alluded to previous poems he had written, and these gave the poem at hand a much greater resonance than it would have had without those references.  And, of course, there is the interior references of Eliot's Four Quartets, even to their very format which links them back to The Waste Land.  The second phrase reminds me of Japanese aesthetic, or what I understand to be Japanese aesthetics, in which wabi-sabi directs the poem, or artwork, to an acknowledgement of imperfection and transience.  These two phrases leaped off the screen at me during my second reading, and, for this reader, they provide a key to the Sperryville poems; and, I am even more convinced, to your entire collection. The beauty of our imperfections and transience, seen against the perfection and permanence of the cosmos, provides a counterpoint that any art can only begin to imply, and cannot ever fully contain.  This is my takeway from the Sperryville poems, and I suspect and expect---from my reading of your other poems---that I have not begun to scratch the surface yet.


J-Called

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I'm thrilled that you saw my

I'm thrilled that you saw my vision in my choice of images, and to have you re-read and examine this particular work is deeply gratifying. I've been overwhelmed by the magnitude of what is happening in our nation: the emboldened racism, police brutality, cruel suppression of dissent and recently the vigilante shooting of a protester—a crime that is not only going unpunished but serving as a catalyst for future violence from paramilitary militias. 

 

So what I was trying to do here was use my pleasant forays into a "perfect" world to produce a stark emotional contrast with another America, as well as provide a metaphor for an emotionally detached society that unwittingly breeds injustice through inaction. 

 

So now you see why I'm particularly grateful that you gave so much attention to this work. My mission here was of Earth-shattering importance to me, and you contributed greatly to my cause with your encouragement and brilliant insights. For this, I am more grateful than you could ever imagine. 

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I had both of your

I had both of your Sperryville poems open at the same time; and, as I said in my comment on the earlier poem, both these poems are so heavy with meaning that I do not believe they can be fully absorbed or understood on a first reading.  I am going to relate these two poems to my first experience with an artwork and its sequel (and these may sound trite, but they were highly important to me).  In 1966 and 1967, respectively, I had the opportunity to view (for the first of many times) the Universal films Frankenstein and Bride of Frankenstein.  After seeing these two films, and the dramatic artistry of Boris Karloff, I realized that I could not take them both in all at once; and I found myself reflecting and re-reflecting, considering and re-considering, and then realizing I still did not understand it all---not because of any lack of quality, but because there was so much quality packed into every scene.  These two poems remind me of that cherished memory from my childhood; the only similar experience I can remember that was parallel to it was reading, in 1976, T. S. Eliot's poems, The Waste Land and Ash Wednesday.  Your Sperryville poems remind me of both of these experiences; and, like the two experiences, the Sperryville poems will require more reflection and concentration, on my part, than can be obtained in a single reading.  As with many of your poems, I must revisit these more than once; and then, any familiarity I can hope for will be, on my part, strictly amateur.  I once told you that, in Spring of 1979, I was able to observe Saturn and its rings through the large telescope at the observatory at my college.  I wish I could do that again, to see it again and again, from different perspectives, in order to more fully appreciate my initial experience.  The Sperryville poems are exactly like that.  


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I'm honored that someone with

I'm honored that someone with your vast and intricate understanding of literature would take the time to look so deeply into my work. Your encouragement is a Godsend. Again and again, thank you!