this fond expectation of mine
stands solid yet still
she does not move
she does not speak
she merely watches me at great
length and will
as I determinedly flog away at
attaining my goal
which is the business of getting
to further know my oblivious self
the Melissa who fearlessly continues
to live behind these ever turbulent eyes
the least shallow me these murky waters
though swift
run surprisingly quite deep
their current while impossibly fierce
holds dear all that need be
I plummet only to then arise
astride this short balance beam
we like to label as life
I am cemented in the very essence of truth
the American Dream attempts to slap me in
the face
I am chastised
the need in me unlike this flawed body
in which I am forced to reside
I will not let suffer nor die
apathy stands a mile high
thankfulness laces each and every last one
of my swirling thoughts
redemption trembles in each their shadowed
wake
and throughout every hope the vision fights
me and all my big dreams
just as I suspected they one day would
I am not surprised
for all rivers feed off
'Even The Smallest Streams'...................
(Jan. 31, 1996)