I still remember touching you
and all the pleasure it could bring
I remember all the love in your eyes
you could not hide from me
and how comforted and cocooned
I felt from the shelter of your tender heart
I still remember the strength in your strong
dark capable hands grip as it held mine
and how so naturally as we started to walk again
I would reach down and blindly feel for it
I remember how so gallantly you always stood near
so quick to do for and or aid me in anything I should
require
I still remember the great pride that swelled in my
heart
just to be out and about with you
I remember the incomparable joy of sitting by your
side in the many cabs and rickshaws
as they attempted to take us everywhere we wished to go
I still remember the raw, beautiful timber of your
voice as you would say, 'I Love You My Bebby!'
as your rough husky breath skated across the nape of
my exposed neck
when your arms drew me near
I remember how you shared your tears and showed me
your own unabashed need of me
I still remember the way you could whole heartedly
laugh and wink so charmingly looking so boyish
in your care free demeanor
I remember watching you sleep so peacefully like a
child and how I prayed so softly that I'd have at least
a whole entire life time of nights to do so again
and how I so emotionally envisioned our own little boy
saying I love You Mommy! with that same adorable grin
I still remember all things good that you made with me
to feel
but best of all
I still remember you
my darling
crazy
annoying
handsome
funny
amazing
incredible
you
and this fantastic love we found in each other
and fed and created
to make more real than any regular real
and all of this I remember just because you are
my incredible
wonderful
breath stealing you
my Satyajeet
bronzed with unstoppable appeal...............
(written Dec.19, 2001 315am)