I've had a good night
many good nights
among windmills lost
and windmills found
vessels of reason
washed by the blind virtue
of for thought
unscathed by reaction
to unexpected adversity
deep shadows
suddenly bathed in light
along side darkened halls
of disappointment
diving down passed steps of
uncertainty
chopping back newly woven self
confidence
its all up hill
on a phenomenal scale
even when it doesn't feel as so
its we who make the ebb and flow
of our confusable lives
so many currents
but only one canal to channel them
through
our so fallible bodies
but the soul's separator of experiences
careful select distributors
streaking through
the cold heaviness of the physical world
its a dream I love but just as often long to
wake up from
I'm never suicidal but I think I've always felt
the longing in me
to simply go back home
too bad God is not yet calling me
so,
I think I'll choose to
Live
Love
Laugh
and learn some more
until he does..................
(written Sept. 24, 2001 230am)