my own
silent mocking sage
all those books I've read
even the embarrassingly unmentionable ones
humiliation revisited perhaps
every time I must admit just where I go this
information or that
inevitably now though
I shrug off such sliver veins to some deeper
knowledge
with the vague words of
Oh, I read it in a book somewhere!
this gets me by
and saves me from shallow mortification
for who would believe of me
sounding as I do
that I learned many aspects of
my philosophy
history
geography
politics
wealth
wisdom
tidbits on art
and yes even poetry
as well as
constructive arguing
and well refined adult behaviors
from of all things
cheesy 186 page romance novels
all in my search
for just a little bit of a better read
all weeds to some
from the romantic's garden
of predictable happy endings
but still
they rose above that
in an anonymous muted sense
and managed to serve me quite well
still
even today....................
(written Aug. 17, 2001 330am)