THIS WEATHERED WORRY

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you still have as yet to correctly guess

so tell me instead what would be the best mop to use

for such a big emotional mess

If you knew the true identity of your anonymous

suiteress

it would likely give you a hearty laugh no less

this decaying situation I shall soon be forced to address

I hear hollow humor these last days in your lioness

laugh

so maybe after all my fragile heart would be safest far

out of the way of your well worn path

still you don't know how badly my name across your soft

sweet lips I long to hear in mention

while in any room together

with a knife one could easily cut through the tension

this sadly suppressed secret I carry

tears me to shreds quietly inside

behind my happy eyes and easy smile there is a terrific

hate I harbor for having lied

with no help at all from me this ill confidence by

itself could rip us apart

the hardest place to find and begin with in the truth

is the very start

please will you let me give one last though not perfect apology

I never once wrote in attempt to hurt, confuse or

wrongly disagree

I only wanted to bring you around to where you would

feel just a little closer to me

tell me what it is that I could possibly say or do

and I would do it

anything

everything

over and over again

just for a chance to start again anew

with you.............................

(written  Jan 8,1992 am)




Author's Notes/Comments: 

wanting to confess a crush and how keeping that quiet cause you think its best to do so for the other person, how that hurts and eats you up inside.... in short it was hell............

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Hell's Nells, Batman!

It was the apology (the confession) that caught my heartstrings and I fell in love with your lineage...to produce such a mind to tell us, to tell us all the ways of being and hoping and denying...Loved The Write (LTW especially: "suiteress" - really?~~~~~ Lady A.


 

 

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How beautifully astonishing...........

to read such a lovely critique from you and my having missed it these nearly 2 years. I feel like a toad's own wart. Please accept my humblest apology allets for not replying sooner to your wonderful  critique. Your comments made me smile and trust me this past week I could sure use a good smile. Again thanks so much, most sincerely, Melissa.