what would I do if you were to marry
would that make my life easier
no not very
thinking painful thoughts such as these is foolish
if not scary
of my own malicious mental outburst I am now wary
writing out my feelings so to understand them is
my featured forte'
in this makeshift mind sex I consider most favorable foreplay
its hard to tell what next my fears will fall prey to
and onto what foremost paranoia will my mind then decide to logically screw
when I'm writing, in my skill I fully believe
some label this as a gift, I say an outlet or
passionate peeve
and yes I do often wear my hacked up heart on my
own soiled sleeve
I have done so since I fell for a heartless man long
ago by the name of Steve
now though when I think of him I no longer angrily
seethe
I am now indifferent towards him I no longer grapple
not to grieve
I have a very strong will for this I have to thank my
mom "Fred"
on the subject of love a lot of light she has so
selflessly shed
never cry all night for the unattainable moon
you don't eat pudding with a fork
when you know it requires a spoon
In other much more wise words
NOTHING EQUALS TOO MUCH TOO FAST TOO SOON........
(written March 9,1991)
hmmm interesting evocative piece.I too was with a Steve long ago.Indifferent,hmm I don't know about that one though.Feel as I once did,no definitely not but with the years that pass and the tears that stopped you move on.If you are logical you are thankful for the good times of the relationship and for the bad thankful they are over,then and only then can you deal with your life and move on