dark night of the soul
utterly stabbed uncertain
in my latest role
his love once so gloriously georgous
yet hateful and so distantly cold now
when he chooses
he serves as dominion over my joy
I am fool to the lowest order
for allowing such treason upon my spirit
just how does one fight the rippling of inner pain
in my anguish I rise to do wounded battle
with this continuous blister upon our marriage
I am woman drained of her most precious elixer
that singular ability to fully understand
just what makes this love so hard for him
to hold his own actions accountable to
I feel I am less of a wife today than I ever was
before
and having such knowledge only further butchers
my poor lonely heart
I was not even worth a solemn goodbye.........
(Feb 23,2004 2am)