a misappropriation
of emotions
my heart
this tight stick in
my chest
bleeds swift and cold
and much neglect
in its wake it leaves
a stainless reminder though
that no love is entirely grand
bu on the fringe of this......
this grappling darkness within
hope aims her arrow at supreme
there's a lark in my song
so how is it that I can not seem
to sing
a robbing of sound howls in me long
a fear not of these words
but of what they could mean
life emulates love
but in its own warped way
a twisted image
to she who wants
it can spitefully bring
I'm certain now of his love
shaken by the depth of his gentle
heart
captured in the sweet hot web of
his want
but the cloak of my former
experiences
in low moments
douses my joy
and I must fight to shed
the past
from mine future's eyes
I need to see him unadorned
without all these images
that have built up in my head
but his form in its unscattered
truth
and through all this fog that I
crawl
my heart is warmly embraced
my the gentle wonder of his
incredible soul
(Jan 15,2001 530am)