sensational depression
my head in a morning spin
a jumble of disconnected thoughts
deep loss so constantly felt
one word eases the churning
SATYA
like insight in the moment gained
many obstacles ahead
but so much possibility and incredible breathless joy
unsweatable hands wringing in tears of endless litany
when will it end?
why does it have to be this way?
how long until we are alas together?
where is he now?
what is he doing?
soon my frazzled soul whispers back
to calm the assault of worry
soon he will be here
remember he loves you soooooo much
soon he's giving you his name just to show you how much so
just hold on
still so in love are we
this helps me hold on
the test is nearly over
I feel we've both passed.
Oct.26,2001 (1am)