AN ADDICTION TO MYSELF (about smoking!)

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JOURNAL#3

is it not concise or correct

to say lord, I'm dying for a cigarette

one lives to breathe in those nefarious narcotic

lased flames

one commonly knows this and never merely presumes

yours truly wording this pen pal like piece shouldn't

be smoking

I know precious life out of myself I am daily choking

but to quit oh you spitless fool

surely you must be joking

you've stepped a step too far into my psyche

you are painfully poking

writing this down pits me against any self denial

t'is best to tip toe passed my short temper so not

to arouse it should it feel in the mood for a good

rile

explain to me my best acceptable option

I must place this commitment under my sole

adoption

help me to help myself to break this horrid habit

for I plan to in its bud neatly nab it

now, LEAVE ME  

for I am destined to be left

all my literal life............

(written April 11,1991)


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Ruth Lovejoy's picture

35 years of smoking I can relate, tried cold turkey no good migranes and shakes now using Welbutrin which cut down craves. Not off them totally yet but slow but sure yeah I can relate........