when you left us
you took with you
the spark of your genius
and your joy
you gave the world so very much
but it came at such a hefty price
to your peace of mind
celestial coats of laughter
drape your freed soul now
I dare say
so much love you gave
even as the inner pain
took more and more of
an unbearable toll
I cried like I'd lost a beloved
funny uncle
when I read of your tragic suicide
the light in this world grew just a
little dimmer
that moment you exited our earthly
sphere
just tell us how to live in a world
without your zany genius near
I don't know the answers
and I can't see them through
the flood of my own tears
as silly to some as it may sound
I truly loved you
through your laughter and compassion
you were able to reach beyond the
physical
and touch the multitude...............
(Jan. 30,2015 145am)
Author's Notes/Comments:
I began this poem back on August 13, 2014 when I first heard that Robin Williams was found dead of an apparent suicide in his own home. I was pretty distraught then as I had known of him and watched his television work as a young child clear back to when he first appeared as Mork on Happy Days, so there was no way through such heavy emotion I could complete it. I saved what little I had written at that time and just waited until I felt ready to touch upon my thoughts of him without the grief being so predominant in the endeavor. Tonight seemed to be that night when I was able to step out in front of my grief and write my own sort of eulogy of sorts about him and how he touched my life I guess you could say. I doubt he truly knew until he died just how much and many lives he truly touched with his compassionate genius. I almost titled my poem Compassionate Genius then I recalled how he was a trained Shakespearian actor at Juliard so I thought that line to Hamlet Good Night Sweet Prince would be far more apropos. Enjoy.
Robin Williams
I liked Williams and really appreciated his work and his humour. It's a tragic loss.
I wasn't tempted to write a eulogy though, the fact that he killed himself prevents me. I've been close to three suicides and I know what his family and friends are still going through, what he chose to put them through. I couldn't write positively about that. Rather no eulogy than a negative one....
What about forgiveness?
For one to commit suicide I doubt it is a light matter and one is being selfish. My grandma use to say until you have walked a day in that person's shoes then you should not judge them. I disagree with you I believe this man brought more love to the world than you and I and a hundred other people have done in our on going lives. He was in a deep depression and was battling that it was revealed for a great many years. Even God forgives the mentally ill and I'm sure his children forgive him for his suicide cause they had to know the depression he was in. His wife even said in a released statement remember him for what he did for the world not this final act. She was far more forgiving than you it would seem so you can't speak for her. You don't write about the actual suicide you write about the 63 years minus that final day and up till that day he killed himself. He did some pretty selfless and amazing things that gave the world far more joy over several decades than the pain he caused by in his low mental moments of dark desperation killing himself. How can you yourself expect forgiveness for your own sins if you cannot forgive others of their sins? You can write you don't agree with what he did but he lived a beautiful ultra giving life right up till the eve of that final day and I bet if his family was to read the words of sorrow and praise that that would bring them some peace even in all the pain they were feeling. I doubt you would if you knew his family tell them listen I can't write anything cause he killed himself and hurt you guys so he doesn't deserve acknowledgment for all the good he brought to the world but any acknowledgment by me of the good he did do for this world should be left alone like it never happened all cause a mentally ill man in desperation took his own life. I hope you will re think your feelings. I bet if you spoke to those three families who had members kill themselves they would not be adverse to you writing a eulogy or remembrence poem about their loved one but quite the opposite. Sincerely, Melissa