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so much of my heart is gone,
that i do not know
what true feeling is
I know pain,
I know anger and sorrow.
but i know not happiness
i know not joy and peace.
But the most painful of all,
is i know not love.
love is said to be excuisite,
said to be free and caring,
it knows no hatred,
knows no race, color, or origin,
But i know not of this feeling
I know not true happiness,
i even know not the real me.
I know characteristics,
i know personality,
but i know not my soul and being.
I wonder what people see,
when they look in my eyes.
for they say,
the eyes are the window to the soul.
If this is true,
what do they see?
Do they see:
How confused I am?
All the pain in my heart?
All the things that i hold back?
The happiness I seek?
What do they see?
I truly wish I knew,
For maybe i could ask,
And maybe then,
I just might understand
Just who I am, and how I feel.
But if I dont know,
And they cannot see,
what will I do?
For how can i learn to love myself,
If i cannot see myself?
How can I experiece this,
If i cannot see or feel it?
Just what am I to do?
Wont anyone help me?
Doesnt anyone care?
Isnt there anyone out there
Who understands my anguish?
Anyone that can see
Through these walls that i have built?
No one who will help me tear them down?
Lord hear my plea,
and send me just one,
One soul who understands,
One person who can help.
That is all i ask.
I dont want money,
I dont want power,
I dont want intelligence,
I dont want better health,
All I want is one who understands,
One to converse with,
One to lean on,
One who's shoulder I can cry on,
One who will jsut hold me,
And tell me it will all be OK.
CAn you not give me that?
Please Lord, I beg you,
Just send me one,
And I will be content.
For they can show me,
All I need to fix,
All I need to change,
And all I have to give.
And then, I can love me.
Then I can know.
Just what love is.
I can give freely,
I can help others,
I can be there for my mother,
I can be happy with me,
I can finally truly love another,
And i can truly be happy,
With me and life.
And, I can truly thank you,
For all that I have,
And was given.
