Like a dark cloud
your emotion is toward me
Uncaring and absent
Inevitable this will be
Through a cloud of smoke you gaze at me
complete absence of tranquillity
Waiting for a sign to put my mind at ease
not knowing of what is to come, I dare to breath
Your words... sharp and untrue
you shatter me
Deservedly so... according to you
Is this the future to be?
Even to this day
my soul is dented by the pain
impossible to heal
Will I ever be free?
I am haunted by the fear
especially when you are near
Your kind words flatter me
but rejected by my better knowledge
Still there is love for you tucked away in the folds of my heart
Occasionally brave enough to make an appearance
Why did you not reveal this side of you from the start?
Yet still controlled by fear in your presence...
I keep this buried deep inside
Unnoticeable...
Hoping for the day I can be seen
Worthy in your eyes...