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"Beat Down" *
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Sad Who would I be if I weren't me?
How would life seem if this were a dream?
How would I feel if this weren't real?
Would it feel strange if this all changed?
If this weren't there, would I still care?
What would happen if the laughs end?
But better yet, would you regret if everything had been a lie?
Would it seem bold if I had told you I was nothing like the guy,
Who you have known for all this time.
Would you forgive me for this crime,
Of lying all these years to you? Could I still fall in love with you?
Or would you hate me like I've feared? Maybe I should have disappeared.
But what would happen if you knew me?
How much would change if you saw through me?
How hard would it be just to try?
Don't need a mask with your closed eye.
Nothing is different than it has been,
And you would know if you'd just listen.
But, maybe if I didn't blame you,
If I could just be more contained too,
I tell myself it doesn't matter.
I'd love to believe that that were,
True, but still I can't avoid it.
I wish I could ignore annoyment.
-Lo Ruhamah
This is beautiful. I like it a lot. Again, what marianne said. I agree with her. Hurt is very present in my life too. This poem is worded very well. You never cease to amaze me with your poetry. I love it. Brava.
Your dear friend,
*megz*
Of lying all these years to you? Could I still fall in love with you?
I wish...I could rectify my life. That's a great line. But my life hurts.