My last words will be
Oh shit
And I must admit when it comes to fear
The Candy Man,
Freddie, Jason, Michael...Bloody
Mary….and the dude from Scream
Ain’t got shit
On this scene
I know yall been there
Havin to endure the pure torture
Of a guilty conscience
As you begin to enter dream sequence
Concocting all the ways your momma will beat yo ass
And suddenly the time is crawling past
You start runnin fast to prevent as much pain
As possible scramblin to hide all the phone cords
And heavy belts…no this ain’t an unlawful flogging This shit be
Mild hey even the bible
Says spare the rod and spoil the child
Now all you can do is wait,that damn phone
Call done sealed your fate
And God out of mercy or just malice
Grants you with some super powers
Or maybe it’s fear that enables you to hear
Everything from when that car pulls up in the drive
On down to the click of the key in the door
And know what’s in store
Suddenly the room will go dark and still
The clink of the belt blends in with the
Lively staccato beat of your heart which is
Accentuated by the clip clop of her shoes
Taunting the ground with your shivers
This together creates an unreal hip hop beat
Just waiting for your wails of pain to provide the melody
So there’s me sittin in the almost dark room
Listening to my doom
And as she stands in the door half in the shadows
It reminds me of that scene in all the horror films where
The killer stands there knife in hand
And as the light hits it just right
You hear that shink sound of cold steal kissing
Empty expectations
My heart is racin as she cracks that shit
Getting in a few practice swings this added to the hip hop beat
Makes me start to squirm in my seat
We sing our hearts out
My voice tinged with secular pleasure
As the belt rapes my bare behind its kisses
Leave me stinging with shame and the regret of
One belt overlooked
Her voice deep and spent it never gets to far off beat
DIDN’T (smack)….ahhhhh!
I (smack)…..arraaaahh!
TELL (smack)…ahhhhhhh!
YOU (smack)….owwwwwww!
NOT (smack)…noooooooo!
TO (smack)….ppppppllleaasse!
SHOW (smack)……iiiiii’mmmmm!
OFF (smack)……srrrrryyyyyy!
IN (smack)…..aaaaaaahhhh!
SCHOOL (smack)…..aaahhhhhhh!
And I’m instantly glad my momma doesn’t studder it’d be like
DI(smack)
DI(smack)
DIDN'T(SMACK)
I(smack)
TE(smack)
TE(smack)
TELL(SMACK)
YO(smack)
YO(smack)
YOU(SMACK)
Shoot I’d never again be able to sit
Wait what was that sound……oh shit....
She’s here…..
This is some powerful thang thang grrrll... I hope you didn't have to live it. If it is then let me preach for a sec...Abuse is never justifiable. Don't ever make excuses for it. It only keeps the cycle of violence in swift certain damning motion... headed for another child or spouse like a pendulum swinging down for it last tearing glance. You will need to forget it but there is no need to forgive. Let them forgive themselves... thats what abusers are best at.