PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

I sit here in the computer lab 18 years of age as

i try and attempt to write something clever and meaningful

yet I struggle to find out what it is I’m seeking or feeling.

I can’t make out my emotions yet and i can’t seem to forget them and let them go

I ponder most of my days of my childhood wishing I could go back and feel

The way I did before.

There was no such thing as time for me growing up

But time for me now is one thing I’m afraid of.

I sit here dying of irresponsibility giving off the vibe that im not

But who am i

I struggle between who I am, who should I be and who I want to be.

On the outside, as a stranger I am strong.

I am intelligent; and with a good head on my shoulder.

My life seems together but I want something more.

I lie to strangers and to myself

What they see is who I wish I can be

Yet im not who they think I am

Im messes trying to find out where I am suppose to go

I hate it .

IM TIRED TIRED TIRED of living each day lost, fading in and out between personalities

And not knowing when to finally just say stop. BE WHO I AM

Be who I want to be…. I WANT the world to see, I want EVERYONE TO SEE!!

I am still me, a regular person on the outside

And torn on the inside by self doubt