Was it better,
Better before.
For awhile I regretted it.
Even know it’s not like I envisioned it.
But what I don't know is which was better.
I don't really know,
And you don't either.
Those who know try their best,
But it’s me who has to cope.
I don't get it.
I mean why isn't it like I wanted it to be?
Do I have to make it like that?
Spend more time with them.
I don't know,
I just don't know.
Was the time before better?
The time past,
Better then the present.
I can't honestly say.
And only I could know.
Yet I don't,
And I don't know why...