Cold: SFK

Knowing her hearts love
And the lack from your own
Makes deciding complicated

Parts of me say do it
Heart knows the lack of truth
Purely stimulated fun, rounded warmth and untainted fun done before

But although unreal it is time, need to feel love
Save myself for the right women and right reasons?
Fears of what I know is true in my heart

Drugs provide warmth but no love
Doing it should be an everlasting moment in ones mind
But if it is just unadulterated fucking, hope might fade

This feeling in my stomach will be reinforced
Life of drugs. Pain no lust for love
Real life slips away, heroin fills in veins to replace...everything

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I know if I want I can definetely lose this curse they call my viginity within the week. But the problem is I want to actually like the girl and even worse I want to know she likes me...I'm not trying to offend anyone but seriously how fucking gay of me! I just say its gay because the life of drugs is pretty much just my close friends who are all just as fucking gay choosing drugs over trying to find themselves a women to make them happy. Its a cop out no doubt. Btw if there is more of a blog ttype spot here someone should let me know cuz I'm just to lazy to make shit poetic right now.

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