Last night
I shared a bed
With a man
Who was not you
And despite
My reasoning
Or lack there of
I can’t think of any excuse
Cause’
I acted on impulse
And I acted on desperation
And in the morning
I turned to face
Someone who wasn’t you
I keep clutching
At these straws
Trying to find a
Way to control
All of this wayward
Emptiness.
Cause my destructive
Little ways
They cannot substitute
The pain
They are just little fixes
Something to fill a space