I knew the direction I was going
but somewhere along the way
I got lured off the path
and now I’m deep in the woods
and the things hidden in the darkness
in the shadows
that once scared me away
now seem to be my only source of fellowship
of feeling involved, accepted and of belonging
instead of rejected, ignored and left out
but, is God testing me?
does God still have his eye on me?
is his finger still guiding my footsteps?
am I just some pawn in a twisted game
between the spiritual forces of good and evil?
All bets are on the table...
will she stay true to God?
despite her loneliness, will she stand firm
in her decision not to date around
(especially with a man of the world)
or will she let her weaknesses become her death?
will she toss away her heart
into the hands of one
who will only squeeze it until the blood
drips to nothing?
will she guard her heart
like she knows she’s supposed to
or will she open its doors
for the thieves to sneak in
and rob her of her purpose, her identity
(it’s the day time soap opera you don’t wanna miss)
let all the angels and demons
gather around the cosmic television set
cast their ballots
ante up the bet
where will she compromise next?
even the good Christian girl falls sometimes
...but does this mean she should continue falling?
deeper and deeper into sin
farther and farther away from the Savior
deep down I know
if I persevere... God will bless me
but my eyes are staring more and more
at the things of this world
I began this race with vivacity
but now I can’t even move
much less run or walk
I know God is talking to me…
warning me of my disobedience
but all I want to do is ignore Him
I sense His pleas...
but I just don’t want to listen
I don’t want to run anymore