I murdered God today
the massacre took place within
bitterness clogs my arteries and veins
blood clots threaten my spiritual mortality
life for me does not flow as softly
and gently as it once did
my only refuge and fortress...
demolished by the fires of my pride
joy and despair fight to the death
but alas joy is crippled beneath the deception
which lingers mercilessly between every pulse
my honor
under siege
oh how the righteous have fallen
how miserable the failures...
dare I return to my King?
only to report
battle after battle
I have lost?
merely a jester in the heavenly court
I coward as though I don't belong
but to my dismay
to my delight
Christ pursues my enemy
Arise, my King! Fight for me!
and He takes back His rightful throne...
oh how the triumph of grace
tremble hell's darkest of evils...
I murdered God
and He redeemed me
it's beautiful, so true, so sad, I often still do murder him, and he redeems me again, praised be him merciful name.
Sabina with love in Christ.
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