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a prayer falling apart
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-1- Christian Poems/Prayers etc Sometimes God I get bitter and upset
I try not to harden my heart
But I can’t seem to help it
I want to trust You...
that You will give me what I need
and all the desires of my heart
my desires are that I will make some friends
not just any body but a close friend...
someone I can share all my deepest secrets with
the way I can with You...
someone I can have over to my house
and just eat popcorn and laugh like silly
and run around the front yard at night
screaming "I LOVE JESUS!" and just doing stupid things like that...
I've prayed for one for so long...
I know I need patience God...
And I hate not waiting on You
Because deep in my heart I know Your timing is perfect...
But why do I have to suffer? I don't understand...
Are You trying to teach me to depend solely on You?
If so I am trying too... I thought I was... I guess I'm not
I guess I need more time and experience...
I get so sad sometimes though Lord...
Maybe I can't open up to people...
I'm being selfish by not reaching out to people
But I've been hurt so much...
Why don't they reach out to me?
It's just the way my life has always been
Friendships fall apart...
And I worry that me and You will fall apart...
I'm falling apart right now
Help me God… don't let me break into
Mend the pieces back together...
My heart shatters every time I lose a friend
And I've lost many friends God...
My heart shatters every time I lose a chance at making a friend
And I've missed so many opportunities because of my fear...
I get bitter and angry when I realize I don’t really have close friends...
I know lots of people…but its not the same...
Eventually I just "come to the conclusion" that I wasn't meant to have friends...
But that can't be true, can it, Lord?
All I need is You, Lord… I know that
I wish I could live with it...
I just wanna die.
But I know I can't...
I know it's not my timing
So I'll need to learn to live with whatever comes my way
You, Lord know best
Give me the strength to carry on another day....
Hear my plea and take control...
Don't let my prayer fall apart...
Naomi Angeline
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Dear Naomi,
Just before I turned off the computer I decided to come and read at least one of your works. I am so glad that I did.
This is so openly honest.
You will find your friend. The Lord will not let you down. We all feel the same way sometimes. I have been going through a very rough time right now. Sometimes I wonder if my prayers are too falling apart.
You are a great witness to the Lord. It is evident in your work and especially in your biography. The quotes you choose were exactly what I needed to be reminded of tonight. Isn't it funny how the Lord brings Christian people together on this site. I don't know how long you have been posting here but you will find that this is one of the most open open hearted sites you will find. Wonderful, caring people here in which I am proud to call my friends. Just added a new one named Naomi tonight!
Please feel free to E-mail me.
Maybe you would like to read Where Do I Go From Here? On my site. You will see that you are not the only one that questions at times.
~Lesa~