Gazing at the star filled sky
My elbows pressed against the windowsill
My hands propping up my head
With my stereo loud to drown out the sound
Dad's throwing a fit again
I can never tell when it'll end
Or how
Mom's screaming pierces the night
My stereo grows louder to drown out the fight
Bluebonnets prance throughout my head
The scent I can almost smell
Daydreaming of kittens to play with
And ice cream to eat after school
But needles pop my fantasy clouds
And remind me that life isn't sweet
The wailing and crashing tortures my brain
My stereo grows louder to drown out the pain
I curl into bed and roll up the sheets
And sink my tired body into the mattress
The doorknob slowly creeks as my Mother walks in
She shuts off the stereo and creeps into bed
Muffling the tears so I won't be afraid
And even though she's the one who's hurt
She strokes my hair back from my face
And hums a tune softly, putting me to sleep.
Jerking awake I thought I heard screams
The room is dark, despite the cracked door
Suddenly I hear a thump hit the ground
Should I turn on my stereo to block out the sound?
I think Dad's throwing a fit again
I can never tell when it'll end
Or how
The back door slams and the car pulls out of sight…
My mother never came back to bed that night.
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this one touched me so much...... for when I was just a mere child I lived with the fear that my dad was going to be mad about something..... I survived but it still makes me sad to know that others live with the same thing now...... hang in there and stay safe