Sitting on the edge of the tub
In my grandma's bathroom,
The world expelled me from their club
My sky is filled with gray and gloom
I can't help but hear the murmuring
It surrounds me like a cloud of smoke.
Deep within, my heart is burning
So harsh it makes me choke
My eyes are like volcanoes
Exploding magma streaming down my cheeks
I'm weakening as my depression grows
Involuntarily I shiver as my strength leaks
Convulsions fill my despicable body
And I struggle to suppress my noisy aches
I put my arms around my incapable body
And listen to the wheezing my breathing makes
Who would have guessed, my life would end twice
Maybe one day my soul will live in peace.
The tub is now overflowing with scalding ice
Gradually I lean backwards into my decease
Just a few hours before the end to my yearning chase
To stop my life from being twirled.
My skin is so burnt the heat feels like lace
All these years I cried alone. Now I scream with the world.
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