Well there's this haunting image that racks my brain
It's starting to drive me insane
I live with my father, yet I live alone
That feeling that creeps up on me only when I stop dreaming
My body hungers for something other than food
Everyday is like the next
I think my soul has been hexed
Every person I open my heart to
They slam the door back in my face
...and shut me out of my own place
I'm shivering standing in this unloving rain
And puddles of tears soak through the soles of my shoes
The world is so quiet and dark; the moon isn't even out
A slight gust of wind just carries away my last breath
I keep staring straight ahead, my vision blurred by the pain
And despairingly all I see is a tunnel filled with fog
I close my eyes and crumble to the ground
Weeping over the deprivation I have encountered
The betrayal and lies that created my bleeding heart
The thickness of rejection that cut my throat
I'm suffocating down here in this sewer
and wallow in anguish as the world drives by above me
The rain adds on to the flooding water
It washes me away like debris
I try to cling onto the side but I'm too weak
My hand slips and to the bottom I sink
What have I done to lose my safety line?
As I take one last look at the surface of my life
I see everyone I've ever loved and cared for
Waving goodbye as they watched carelessly
Not an emotion in their eyes, or expression on their faces
Could it be they were as dead inside as I was?
The only thing I realized as I sank to the bottom was
My loved ones didn't let me die; Instead I killed myself.
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Hi ,
I just read this poem and think it`s great . I must agree with to be alone sucks... I know what it is . . . I like the way you express your feelings. . . keep up the good work and stop by my site sometime.